I'm f*&#-ing old! What happened to me?

I was driving home from the gym last night, when it occurred to me that I'm old. I was thinking about the gym, and about how my mom told me once that your metabolism dramatically slows down after you hit 30. And then I realized how old I really am. It's funny how I came to be in this position really. I didn't used to be old. But all of a sudden I am. There are a lot of factors that make me old though.

1. I am 27. I turned 27 on April 1st. So I have my physical age that makes me old.

2. I am married. I think that also makes me older.

3. I have 3 children (bunnies). Does this count? I think it does.

4. I make dinners in crock pots. The night before, I prepare something and put in the crock pot and in the fridge, and then take it out before I go to work and start it cooking, or have Kevin start the crock pot when he gets home at 3, so we can eat when we get home from the gym at 8. The motivation behind this is to save money--if we are hungry and know a cooked hot dinner is waiting at home, we are less likely to detour to Hooters or Taco Bell on the way home from the gym. We have probably 2-3 crock pot dinners a week.

5. I grocery shop with coupons. All the time. If it's not produce or milk, and I don't have a coupon for it, it's not in my cart.

6. I only grocery shop with coupons at stores that double or triple them.

7. I buy certificates for grocery stores at church so I can help support the school. I am doing this so I can help ensure admission to the catholic school of my choice for my children. I only buy certificates for stores that double and triple coupons.

8. After the wedding, I slowly started wearing more and more old lady underwear.

9. I don't remember the last time I wore heels. I never plan to wear them again.

10. When I go places and see 'kids', I usually guess they are much younger than they really are. Today, there was a group of 'kids' on site at work. I asked this guy at lunch that had been working with the 'kids' --"Hey, what are all those kids here for today?" He said "Kids? Well, they are students in the Masters program for chemistry at U of D". !! I thought they were high school kids.

So, last night, when I was coming home from my step class, I realized that I was only 3 years from 30, and my husband is only 1 year from 30, and when my mom and dad were 30 I was 8. I remember it. There is no possible way that I will have an 8 year old when I turn 30. None of my children will remember when their mom turned 30.....Isn't that weird?

Unless some guy who has given birth to my extremely unexpected love child comes forward......

Ok, but back to how old I am. Do you remember when you were 17? I do. I considered 27 year olds to be adults. I figured they must be really together--you know, having careers and knowing what they are doing with their lives. All really grown up. Way more together than I had things at 17. But now at 27....I definitely don't feel grown up like I should. I definitely don't feel that easy "Yeah, I have it all together" feeling I expected. In fact, I think I had it all together more when I was 17. I wish the 17 year old me could come and work for the 27 year old me, because I was really smart and responsible and had a life plan.....I just feel lucky if I can make it to work on time (hmm, ok, make it to work) and then to the gym and home for a crock pot supper and to bed at a decent time (10 o' clock is a decent time for bed for us).

Maybe I shouldn't have any real kids--I'm probably going to die soon. Probably in the next 45-50 years. And if my kids are as lost in their adulthood as I am, I won't live long enough to see them REALLY grow up.

Do we ever really grow up?

What happened???